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Tuesday, September 26, 2006
it must have been hard for him to hear his little girl sobbing on the other line. no matter how much hard i tried to hide the pain, i was unsuccessful to stop the tears from flowing. didnt mean to make him worry. tried to console my sorrow with the hug and sweet words of my papang, but you know, nothing beats the comfort of having him around. his and my bro's mere presence soothe this brat's emotions. its difficult when youre used to being surrounded by people whom you tell almost everything you feel, hear or see. without having the need to sugarcoat or delete somethig you have in mind. without being judged or whatsoever. its ironic that what ive been so used to and what have worked for me and my men, apparently, does not necessarily work for everybody. i blame myself. for lapse of judgment. for expecting things to be the same if not better. for thinking everyone that talks to me about my future cares and loves me as he does. or like my brother does. to be in this position is more or less my fault. but as i have said again and again, i try to be a little stronger. but isnt it as hurtful to know "a little" is not enough? will never be enough? more than just a little of strength is what i need but what can i do if my sole source of strength and i are miles are miles apart? can it be fedex-ed? boi, how i wish it was that easy. life is never fair and i know that too well. learned that from him, from the bestest of the bestest. id like to share something my old friend, gc, told me. the people whom you think are trying to stop you from everything are actually the ones who are pushing you to be better, to be in the right place. gawd, i sure hope i didnt mess with my grammar this time. geez, life is trippin' on me. | |
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because if you choose silence, people take advantage of you.
because if you dont speak, they will tell lies. because if you dont care and simply live life, they make up stories. because if you are loved, others will bring you down.
sometimes, you need a place you can call your own. where all you see and hear is the truth. a place where you see colors instead of just black&white. a happy place. home.
