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Thursday, July 27, 2006
as a kid, i hated it every time daddy takes me and my brothers to japanese restos while all the other kids head to jollibee or mcdonalds. but unconsciously, my love for everything jap grew each day. its crazy how i even used to dream about marrying a japanese guy thinking id surely have cute little kids. i even remember me and my ex, K, candidly talked about living in japan just in case we end up having each other for the rest of our lives. and if anything, our love for japs is one of the few things we share in our family. anyways.. usually i am with my 8-year old cousin. i tried telling her how i get confused or feel stuck sometimes but she doesnt understand yet. she says, ".. but i dont get it." poor little girl. but wait oh, she loves jap, too!! amidst all the confusion, boredom, and blur.. theres one thing that keeps me sane. my weekly dose of Oh! Wasabi Sushi!! did i say it preserves my sanity?? oh well. another weekend is here.. be sure to have a happy one. =) Bone painted the world at 10:55 PM |
Monday, July 24, 2006
yes, it took me that long to satisfy my craving for balsamic vinegar. i had to wait for me to puke before i could realize ive overdone it. since its been more or less 3 days, i decided to not edit my previous entry and make a new post instead. almost three days and a lot already happened. at least in my current lifetime. last saturday, we had a despidida (go away party) for our family friends who are moving to san antonio, texas. according to those creatures, its more of a business strategy than any thing else. tip: they said theres going to be a new oil company in texas and once it materializes, the state will definitely boom! noting that that's how california started its career daw. im thinking this must be a good news for kai. yesterday, a family friend whom i havent seen for more than three years dropped by. not much happened but you know how it is seeing someone you havent seen for a long time. the feeling itself is good. and then the prodigal son (H) finally came back. i am not a mother yet so i really dont know how it feels when a son goes into a hiatus. but seeing my aunt go through this sitation, i kinda have an idea. what i partly dont get is how other parents dont understand the longing of my aunt to at least see her son's face even from afar, how contented she is just listening to her son's voice when i put my cellphone on loudspeaker every time i get to talk to H, or how it lightened her day when i told her "tita, i checked out friendster and it says its only been three days since kuya H last logged in. that means he's alive." "talaga? buhay ang anak ko," said she with twinkling eyes. after a month or so of haggling with my cousin, which was always over the phone, i was finally able to convince him to see his mom. the moment he said yes, i was thrilled. i figured its going to thrill everybody most especially my aunt. it was around 10pm. i immediately called her up to tell her the news, instructing her not to leave her house coz H is picking me up then we'd go there together. little did i expect that i also have to negotiate with my other aunt and grandparents for them to allow me facilitate "the homecoming." this morning, aunt2 called me up and she sounded really upset saying i better call my grandpa, which i immediately did. only to find out how disappointed he is. better not go into details, but do you see the picture? do you feel the tension? though i am not sure where the tension is coming from.. my granpa is nice and always fun to be with.. as much as i want to spend time with everyone, isa lang ang katawan ko. and my being with H today doesnt mean that to me, he's more special than everyone else in the family. its just that he is the prodigal son. Bone painted the world at 11:14 AM |
Friday, July 21, 2006
im currently playing happy by square heads. it doenst necessarily mean i am in love and happy.. but as the songs goes, happy is i wanna be. ... wait, my tongue is craving fr some balsamic vinegar. ill be back to continue with this post. of course, i could just save this as draft.. but i dont want to coz i want a new entry.. badly! hehe. Bone painted the world at 3:58 PM |
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
my heart feels a bit heavy. its been forever and i still havent received the necessary documents. i had it all figured out since 2003 but why does it seem like destiny is not cooperating with me? its just frustrating when you have planned everything carefully while the others are busy hurting other people and still things dont happen as you planned. not even close. theres not even a hint that says youre on the right track or that everythings gonna be okay soon. everyone says i have to be patient. im trying my best. but you see, ive been waiting for a while now and i feel like im gonna explode anytime.. im praying so hard for guidance and all that but im about to lose faith. just so unfair. and yesterday, the results of the local nurse licensure examination was released. it shouldnt affect me since i didnt take it. most of the people i know passed. except for one person, C. ive seen her work so hard. she's put a lot of effort and shes really one bright student. not only that, god knows shes one of the nicest girls in the world. sabi nga nila, siya ang taong pwedeng abusaduhin. so i was like, how could the bad ones pass? and there are also those who just didnt study seriously and still passed. i am disappointed. i could go straight to hell for what ive been thinking since yesterday. nasan na si god? why are the victors the evil ones? why is he letting the bad prevail over good? not only that. the controversy. prc is even aware of it. everyone who passed is aware of the leakage. papalagpasin na lang ba ulit? does anyone remember the word "fair??" ya, with all that, i am convinced i have to do something really bad in order to advance. seeing how the game of life is running, i am convinced i have to be an asshole just to get ahead of life.. but thats not me. im not an asshole and i know ill never be one. but i dont wanna be stuck here forever.. do you get it everytime i say i am so much in a deadend situation? its like i have to choose between evil/success and good/failure. my tita says darating din ang karma sa mga taong ganun. kung hindi naman, god bless their hearts. you know, whether or not karma would hit the villains, i could care less! really. i wouldnt care at all.. basta wag lang sana napapabayaan yung wala namang inaaapakang ibang tao para lang makalamang. life is unfair. i know it never is.. but this is too much. i need a god. where is he? Bone painted the world at 8:56 AM |
Saturday, July 15, 2006
"are you working?" "uh no." "do you have a cellphone?" i pondered for a moment. "no." of course, i lied." "you're very beautiful." "thank you." i really was grateful. but god knows i almost crawled away from the guy. why does it always have to come from the wrong guy? fine, maybe im just being a diva. blame it on celebrity magazines. i even labeled my files "hollywood files" and my bags "hollywood bags." i swim almost everyday and i start imitating paris hilton's paparazzi shots. i follow writer's advice on how to pose in such a way that youre tummy stays tucked. i run on parking lots, wearing big dark shades, toward mall entrances as if photographers are trying to take a shot -- but actually, i am just running away from the sun. the heat is just killing me. but last night, i had to borrow someone else's sweater. yes, its summer and i borrowed a sweater. hows that? i really am not making sense, am i? blame it on Star, Us, and life&Style.. theyve been keeping me and my eyes busy when im supposed to be reading Saunder's Comprehensive Review. darn it. darn those celebrity mags. Bone painted the world at 2:01 AM |
Sunday, July 02, 2006
adobo vs. burrito thats what carlos said. obviously, adobo wins. pacquiao wins! woohoo..! mas masarap naman kasi talaga ang adobo. Bone painted the world at 1:32 PM | |
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