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Wednesday, May 03, 2006
yes, running away.. thats what i do best. its not always for the better.. but sometimes, its what you simply want so you just go for it. and hope for the best. i am leaving soon, running away from the place which is little by little becoming less and less friendly.. i am moving on, leaving behind all the fears, love and hurt that once filled my heart.. i am turning my back on people whom ive loved and loved me in return, from all those whom i have hurt and hurt me as well. its about starting anew. i dont know how long it will take me to be away but the feeling is just way way overwhelming.. its funny because it was i (the selfish side of me) who insisted on this. im happy. but worried, too. firstly because my father seems to be having secodn thoughts on this. and you know what they say, mother knows best. and he's technically my mother. it scares me when this happens, coz last time we disagreed on something (or someone rather), he was ALL right. and you know how it is when youre being told the words "i told you so." hehe. im not sure how this is going to change my life either. i always say im in a quarterlife crisis. but a lot of doors have opened. im lucky i even have options. but its tricky coz its hard to choose. so this is how it is when you have to decide all by yourself and for yourself, eh? this trip might even change how my family is right now. or how they will take it. ive always been more than cl0se and open to my boys (dad and brother). sure, we've talk about this many times but never seriously. and besides, its only going to take me just a couple of months.. maybe. if things dont turn out as planned, i could always go back anytime. ive been thinking that i could always go back to where ive left (by then).. but then suddenly, naisip ko, paano kung wala na pala akong mababalikan? scary.. really really scary. but this is a personal journey im trying to traverse. its full of uncertainties but one thing is for sure, ill have god with me. its not going to be for good, but who knows where or how the blind blows? so whatever happens, id like to take this chance to thank everyone, no matter how deep or shallow the friendship/relationship is, no matter how long or short the time we've spent together.. thank you for touching my life.. for being a part of me. ill see you all soon. ps. wait, i did not say im saying goodbye, okay? :P Bone painted the world at 9:40 PM | |
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because if you choose silence, people take advantage of you.
because if you dont speak, they will tell lies. because if you dont care and simply live life, they make up stories. because if you are loved, others will bring you down.
sometimes, you need a place you can call your own. where all you see and hear is the truth. a place where you see colors instead of just black&white. a happy place. home.
