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Tuesday, May 30, 2006
apologies.. i didnt mean to post a blank entry. if you could even call it an entry. haha. i wasnt even aware of it. i guess that makes it a lil obvious that i am still a little lost these days, huh? im finally "breaking up" with tj.. if you still remember who he is.. but its rather for a good cause. okay, okay. tj is the accord i just got a little over a year ago. my dad and i decided to sell it already. come to think of it, we were planning to sell even before we could even get me a car. tsk. tsk. and people were telling me theyd buy it from me before i could even tell them id sell it. tsk. tsk. and now that im actually selling it, those guys suddenly vanished. as in poof! guys guys.. all talk. how tragic. im really really starting to let go of my old life. i think. aside from finally agreeing to sell the car, i also gave up some of my stuffs already. and not just some stuffs. you know, things that used to mean a lot to me.. things that i thought i cant live without.. its not really because i hate my life now. but its rather because i want to redirect my life. i want to move forward and the only way to do so is to let go of the past and stop holding back. and with moving forward, i mean moving towards God, success, good health and happy life. hopefully. still unemployed and ill probably be such for only God knows how long, but it doesnt bother me that much anymore. i dont know, my fantasies and illusions somehow convinced me that good things are waiting for me. how true? no idea. for the moment, ill continue living. after all, thats the only option i have. Bone painted the world at 10:39 PM |
Sunday, May 28, 2006
Bone painted the world at 8:17 AM |
Saturday, May 20, 2006
1. hmm.. im late again for mother's day. if you have a mom to argue with about the simplest things in life, you're lucky. if you have a mom who reminds you that youre beautiful, you're lucky. if you have a mom who gives advices about boys, love, kikay stuff, or whatever, im telling you.. you're lucky. if you have a mom who cooks good food, wow, you're lucky. if you have a mom you can hug when you're feeling blue, you're lucky. if you have a mom to cover up your wrong doings from your dad, you're lucky. if you have a mom you can laugh with or even cry with.. you're lucky. if you have a mom you can give roses to every second sunday of may, you're lucky. or simply put, you're sooo lucky to have a mom like yours.. belated happy mother's day to all moms out there.. =) 2. i stood in front of a mirror and looked at myself.. i put an evil grin coz at the back of my mind i was telling myself, "oh geez, youre beautiful." and i dont even think i was being conceited at all. i take it as a good sign.. that im moving forward. you see, a lot have happened the past few months and mishaps have stolen most of my self-esteem and confidence but now, i am little by little standing up from those i have stumbled upon.. and i dont just think that. i KNOW so.. =) 3. oh, welcome back from HK, yen. 4. believe me, i am not heart broken.. =) Bone painted the world at 11:03 AM |
Thursday, May 11, 2006
girl and boy. both afraid of hurting each other. so they try hard enough to control what they really feel for each other. the result? they end up hurting each other. shit happens. and so does love. but sometimes, we're just too scared to accept it. and what the hell am i writing about? i have no idea. love is probably just trying to haunt me. eeek! Bone painted the world at 11:36 PM |
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
yes, running away.. thats what i do best. its not always for the better.. but sometimes, its what you simply want so you just go for it. and hope for the best. i am leaving soon, running away from the place which is little by little becoming less and less friendly.. i am moving on, leaving behind all the fears, love and hurt that once filled my heart.. i am turning my back on people whom ive loved and loved me in return, from all those whom i have hurt and hurt me as well. its about starting anew. i dont know how long it will take me to be away but the feeling is just way way overwhelming.. its funny because it was i (the selfish side of me) who insisted on this. im happy. but worried, too. firstly because my father seems to be having secodn thoughts on this. and you know what they say, mother knows best. and he's technically my mother. it scares me when this happens, coz last time we disagreed on something (or someone rather), he was ALL right. and you know how it is when youre being told the words "i told you so." hehe. im not sure how this is going to change my life either. i always say im in a quarterlife crisis. but a lot of doors have opened. im lucky i even have options. but its tricky coz its hard to choose. so this is how it is when you have to decide all by yourself and for yourself, eh? this trip might even change how my family is right now. or how they will take it. ive always been more than cl0se and open to my boys (dad and brother). sure, we've talk about this many times but never seriously. and besides, its only going to take me just a couple of months.. maybe. if things dont turn out as planned, i could always go back anytime. ive been thinking that i could always go back to where ive left (by then).. but then suddenly, naisip ko, paano kung wala na pala akong mababalikan? scary.. really really scary. but this is a personal journey im trying to traverse. its full of uncertainties but one thing is for sure, ill have god with me. its not going to be for good, but who knows where or how the blind blows? so whatever happens, id like to take this chance to thank everyone, no matter how deep or shallow the friendship/relationship is, no matter how long or short the time we've spent together.. thank you for touching my life.. for being a part of me. ill see you all soon. ps. wait, i did not say im saying goodbye, okay? :P Bone painted the world at 9:40 PM | |
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