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Friday, April 28, 2006
mild to moderate anxiety, undioagnosed. although i have not consulted a doctor yet (as if its socially acceptable here in our country to seek even just a psychiatric consultation), i am positive that i am more or less (more on the more) neurotic. we all have our neurotic moments. neurosis is different from psychosis, by the way. the difference between the two is for you to find out. i thought i am ready for the big test (actually, i really WAS ready) but each day, my apprehensions continue to progress hence the decreasing learning ability, memory and sanity. i was really, really determined and focused to top "it" since february until holy week arrived. i was literally pushed to be out of track. and now i find it so hard to go back. as a result, my id and superego are in major conflict. if i fail to setlle this, it will ultimately lead to the falldown of my ego a.k.a. personality and disintegration of my perception of reality. although being normal is quite.. uhm.. boring, i would say.. mental breakdown is still something i dont want to happen just because of some examination. as self-centered as it may sound, i decided to protect my ego and save myself from further insanity. to do just that, ive made up my mind. i will run away. and i have actually planned a specific escape. (may the good lord help me.) i am running away. Bone painted the world at 4:50 AM |
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
this is something that just popped in my head while i was studying.. according to some theorists of the developmental stages, it is during the preschool stage that homosexuality starts to develop, consciously or unconsciously.. and then one of my professors says that its possible for person to be gay and homophobic at the same time. i have nothing against gays, lesbians, or whatnot.. but here's my theory. players are actually gay homophobics. people who couldnt accept their true identity. they deny that deep inside, they are actually gay. so what they do is cheat on their girlfriends/boyfriends, hook up with the species of the opposite sex as much as they can in order to convince themselves that they're not gay. cheating is their way of suppressing their real self-identity and gender. cheating is their ego defense mechanism. but you see, there's really no point in doing that. coz for sure, no matter how good they are at hiding their homosexuality, it will come out at some point. and why hide it anyway? theres nothing wrong being gay. whats wrong is fooling yourself. not accepting who you really are. and worse, if you choose fooling around just to validate that your straight or as a form of pretecting your ego, you'll just end up hurting the person youre in a relationship with. straight or gay.. theres only one word to descirbe these players: LOSERS. again, i have nothing against homosexuality. ps. yen, i tried visiting your site but it says, "bandwidth exceeded.." =( Bone painted the world at 8:00 PM |
Sunday, April 16, 2006
if youre twenty something or even in your 50's or 60's and you still can be young, snaps for you. youth, i think, is one of the few things we should hold on to for as long as we can. so what if people say youre so bata or whatnot. most often than not, they're just jealous coz they couldnt afford to be fun or to at least enjoy life the way the young at heart does. being young is a treasure. so savor it. don't be afraid to liberate the child in you. remember, age is just a number and you can always lie about it.. although there's really no need to do that. lol. dance in the rain, play patintero, or whatever.. doodle, swim, sing even if you cant carry a tune, laugh out loud, be crazy.. from time to time, magpaka-dugyut. haha. learn new things. simply put, HAVE FUN. there's no need to hurry, life is short and its end is inescapable.. so why rush?! stay young. i am not interested on how old are you.. so tell me how young you are instead. ;) Happy Easter! Bone painted the world at 10:21 PM | |
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because if you dont speak, they will tell lies. because if you dont care and simply live life, they make up stories. because if you are loved, others will bring you down.
sometimes, you need a place you can call your own. where all you see and hear is the truth. a place where you see colors instead of just black&white. a happy place. home.
